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imamaryanneI'm an atheist. So when my mom died last December, I didn't have a bible to turn to. I don't believe in heaven, so I couldn't be comforted by the thought of mom sitting on a fluffy cloud watching over me (conversely, I also don't have to worry about her burning in the pits of hell. So.)
But I needed comfort, so I turned to my Harry Potter books (and fandom.) In Prisoner of Azkaban, after Harry tells Dumbledore that he thought it was his dad saving him with the stag patronus, Dumbledore says to Harry "You think the dead we loved ever truly leave us?" I can't even begin to tell you how much I was comforted by that thought. I wrote it down on a piece of paper and carried it in my pocket every day. When I needed to, I'd bring it out and read the quote a million times and think about how, as long as I have my memory, my mom will never leave me. Sometimes I'd lose the paper, or I'd accidentally wash it in my pocket, but I'd always write it out again.
Yesterday, I got this tattoo.
The four-leaf clover is not a HP symbol. It's sort of the unofficial symbol my siblings and I have adopted for our mom. She was insanely good at finding four-leaf clovers anywhere.
But I needed comfort, so I turned to my Harry Potter books (and fandom.) In Prisoner of Azkaban, after Harry tells Dumbledore that he thought it was his dad saving him with the stag patronus, Dumbledore says to Harry "You think the dead we loved ever truly leave us?" I can't even begin to tell you how much I was comforted by that thought. I wrote it down on a piece of paper and carried it in my pocket every day. When I needed to, I'd bring it out and read the quote a million times and think about how, as long as I have my memory, my mom will never leave me. Sometimes I'd lose the paper, or I'd accidentally wash it in my pocket, but I'd always write it out again.
Yesterday, I got this tattoo.
The four-leaf clover is not a HP symbol. It's sort of the unofficial symbol my siblings and I have adopted for our mom. She was insanely good at finding four-leaf clovers anywhere.
